With Valentine’s Day cards and candlelit dinners, February is, of course, known as the month of love. So, this will be our topic this month. We will be focusing on all things love. More specifically, the heart chakra.
I would venture to say that most humans on the planet have an issue or blockage in their heart chakra. Or maybe that’s just my partially blocked heart chakra being cynical. Who knows.
This is an area that I have chronically had to deal with and work on. Spomie had me meditate on my heart chakra daily for YEARS. I have been through so much trauma and deep betrayals in my life that I hold some well-earned trust issues. What’s funny is that I’ve spent most of my life in this weird space of being half open-hearted, loving, and accepting of people, while the other half is numb, disconnected, and sardonic.
I’ve spent a lot of time in therapy, meditation, journaling, shadow work, and girl talk with my friends trying to unearth so much of those things from the past and yet so much still remains. The cynical side of me thinks, “I don’t even care anymore. I’m fucking tired. It just is what it is. I don’t think I’m that bad. I’m good enough.” But the other part of me says, “Life is so good, and it’s only getting better! It is so worth all the time and effort I have invested in healing myself! Let’s keep going.”
And so, I do. Keep going, that is. I keep going and feel those cynical feelings when they arise, but they don’t get to stay. Every once in a while I need to check in with myself and take stock. What limiting beliefs do I still have in there or have I picked up recently? Anything?
Admittedly, I have some renewed heart blocks that came back raging after finding out Fred cheated on me a few years ago. That experience unlocked a whole smorgasbord of anger, trust issues, insecurities, etc. I thought those were healed and put away. But they are back in full-force at this point. I try to work on them, but it’s such a long process.
This was a long ramble and for that I’m sorry…kind of. The thing is that I never ask anyone to do anything that I am not willing to do myself. I think using my own life and my own work as a real-life example in all of the various areas has been helpful for so many people.
By humbling myself and laying it all bare for those who are learning, it shows them they aren’t alone, healing can happen, and this is how to go about it. Follow my lead.
By humbling myself and laying it all bare for those who are learning, it shows them they aren’t alone, healing can happen, and this is how to go about it. Follow my lead.
So, let’s talk about the heart chakra this month. I plan to put together some journal prompts, talk about crystals that will help with this, and other things related. What questions do you have for me related to this topic?
xo,
